Dragos Lup
Richard’s passage describing Charles playing the piano first stuck out to me because it feels almost alien in the context of the passage. It begins with an incredibly descriptive section of chapter two in which Richard became enamored by his environment. The passage itself struggles to maintain its ideas, and it quickly jumps between different tones of writing. This passage is written in a way that describes Richard’s separation from the group and the feelings that someone outside of dark academia may have about the subject.
The first sentence is a big part of what makes this passage so interesting: it shows us all of Richard’s feelings about Charles, but also Charles’ feelings. The phrases “played with relish” and “smiling at his work” let the reader know that Charles is enamored by his work to the point where even Richard can notice it (Tartt 79). Rather than saying he was smiling, it is said that he smiled at his work as if he could smile at a sound. In a similar sense, it is said that he played with relish rather than played well to show that the focus of this passage isn’t the music; it’s how the music makes the characters feel. Richard describes the music as a “tricky syncopation,” almost as if listening to it was confusing, but it melded together in a symphony (Tartt 79). This sentence reminds the readers how Richard feels about the group and that, despite his loneliness, he still desperately looks up to the group. So much so that Richard even describes himself listening to it as almost awkward, as if he isn’t good enough to be in the presence of such a scene. This feeling is something fans of dark academia might relate to, wanting to join in on a group but feeling separated because of class.
In the following sentences, the passage goes from describing an extremely emotional moment in an amazingly intricate way to a very plain situation. The sentences describe Camilla sitting beside Charles and smiling at Richard, followed by Richard smiling back. These two sentences are so incredibly plain compared to the intricate detail of the first sentence: it is jarring that they’re in the same passage. These sentences feel out of place in the passage, just like how the passage feels out of place in the chapter. The change in writing style reflects Richard’s state of mind. While Charles’ music needed all that detail to show its importance, this moment with Camilla was already important. This separation between the very “dark academia-esque” playing of the piano, the overall environment, and the moment with Camilla amplify these feelings of isolation. Richard is a man from a broken home with little to no money to speak of, and while he strives for the picturesque, now that he’s there, he’s almost embarrassed to be included. Dark Academia can feel like a very closed-off community that is dominated by rich people, and Richard can be related to it in this way.
The writing style returns to its original state, and Camilla’s interjection is further amplified by the final sentence. Richard describes the ceiling as giving off a “ghostly echo” (Tartt 79). You can almost see him struggle to escape his situation by focusing on other parts of the room, forgetting that he’s right in the middle. Despite his immense desire to feel included, Richard is afraid to be. He describes the situation as having “desperate hilarity” and having “the quality of a memory” (Tartt 79). These words describe Richard’s thoughts in real time. He struggles with allowing himself to live in the moment and tries to return to viewing the situation as separate from himself. Finally, he says, “memories of things I’ve never known,” which describes the difficulty he finds himself in. He views his environment as something he would love to have but fears that he is not included: almost synonymous with someone wanting to take part in dark academia.
This passage is written interestingly to describe Richard’s situation and his emotional state. It helps to give us context for future decisions Richard makes when he puts his image above his safety because he believes he’s barely a part of the group in the first place. These feelings are almost echoing modern-day fans of dark academia, who might look at the community and believe that they’re not included. Richard views his position in the group as a dream he struggles to keep living, and he’s afraid that even the smallest mistake will wake him up.